Sigh. I sigh a lot. I just watched "Return to Me" for the bajillionth time. It is so wonderful. WATCH IT! Yes I just got all caps lock crazy on you. That's how serious of a matter this is. It's amazing. And if there is something amazing in this world you can bet your bottom dollar (what does that even mean?) that I will inform you of it.
So.... I guess I just wanted to blog about love for a wee bit. Humor me! Yes, I'm only 19 (but to younger people that's way old! Gosh that used to seem so old....) but it would be nice to have some romance in my life. I've definitely had some before but for all I know I was psycho and making it up with my mutant teenage hormones. Anyway... it would just be nice to have someone. Maybe not even someone... just someTHING! If that makes sense. People are always telling me to calm down and wait it out and things will happen when the time is right and yes, yes, I know these things... but is it so much to want to flirt with someone right here, right now? Or just know that someone likes you and is thinking about you or wants to make you happy through the smallest things. Heck, let's face it...
I'M GUNNA BE 20 OR OLDER WHEN I GET MY FIRST KISS!!
Yes world, I just went there. You might as well know, I mean it's not like it's a big secret. Sigh. And it's cool, it really is. I mean I'm proud to say I've waited this long. And on days when I'm not "proud" of it, I still think it's kinda funny and cool. I could have had that first kiss so many other times (excuse how cocky that sounded... did not mean for that at all...just meant that many situations posed for it) but I want it to be special and great. And so... unless it happens before November 26th... I shall have lived 20 years of my life without kissing someone. Well, except Andrew in the 2nd grade. But we choose to blot out that memory. Yes.
Anyway... I was talking to my wonderful Kamala tonight and she was saying how she's going to focus on living her life right now and having fun and being her best self. And I think that's awesome! Because it's so true - this young adult life will soon be gone and I'll wish I had soaked up every minute of it instead of four fifths of it or whatever. But I still hope for something to happen.. and soonish. I'm not expecting a marriage proposal or anything, just... SOMETHING! I feel I've been so dang patient. I know, I know, I'm young and I have so much time. I know these things. I don't need to be reminded. I just wish I had someone to give me butterflies. Man it has been a long time since I've felt those. You know? Unless someone is giving you butterflies right now already, you can't disagree with me. Come on people, ya feel me here, I know it!
So.... I guess I just wanted to blog about love for a wee bit. Humor me! Yes, I'm only 19 (but to younger people that's way old! Gosh that used to seem so old....) but it would be nice to have some romance in my life. I've definitely had some before but for all I know I was psycho and making it up with my mutant teenage hormones. Anyway... it would just be nice to have someone. Maybe not even someone... just someTHING! If that makes sense. People are always telling me to calm down and wait it out and things will happen when the time is right and yes, yes, I know these things... but is it so much to want to flirt with someone right here, right now? Or just know that someone likes you and is thinking about you or wants to make you happy through the smallest things. Heck, let's face it...
I'M GUNNA BE 20 OR OLDER WHEN I GET MY FIRST KISS!!
Yes world, I just went there. You might as well know, I mean it's not like it's a big secret. Sigh. And it's cool, it really is. I mean I'm proud to say I've waited this long. And on days when I'm not "proud" of it, I still think it's kinda funny and cool. I could have had that first kiss so many other times (excuse how cocky that sounded... did not mean for that at all...just meant that many situations posed for it) but I want it to be special and great. And so... unless it happens before November 26th... I shall have lived 20 years of my life without kissing someone. Well, except Andrew in the 2nd grade. But we choose to blot out that memory. Yes.
Anyway... I was talking to my wonderful Kamala tonight and she was saying how she's going to focus on living her life right now and having fun and being her best self. And I think that's awesome! Because it's so true - this young adult life will soon be gone and I'll wish I had soaked up every minute of it instead of four fifths of it or whatever. But I still hope for something to happen.. and soonish. I'm not expecting a marriage proposal or anything, just... SOMETHING! I feel I've been so dang patient. I know, I know, I'm young and I have so much time. I know these things. I don't need to be reminded. I just wish I had someone to give me butterflies. Man it has been a long time since I've felt those. You know? Unless someone is giving you butterflies right now already, you can't disagree with me. Come on people, ya feel me here, I know it!
Well.. that is pretty much it. Call it venting... call it complaining... just speaking from the heart. I know, or at least I strongly hope, that I will fall in love one day and get married. I know I'm not ready for marriage right now. But I also wish I had a crush on someone and someone had a crush on me. Yes. That sounds so 3rd grade. But it would be nice. It's been so long. Ah.
Alright. Time for bed and hopefully not regretting this post in the morning. :) Silly nighttime... you toy with my emotions.
(I actually took this picture in my driveway in Alabama :) that is my dog Daisy's leg. <3)
3 comments:
I was 22 (minus the time in the gas station when i was 17... but we don't talk about that). Anyway, I know what you're saying. Everyone feels that way sometimes! Sometimes I miss high school for that reason. You always hear of people liking you, but it never has to go anywhere! Perfect! haha. Anyway, I heart you.
haha exactly! /: I'm glad you understand. gracias amiga. :) and I definitely want to hear the gas station story someday =D
I love it girlie! I am way behind..gotta catch up on your blogs...but don't feel bad...i am 41 and have those same days...where i just don't want to be alone. But being alone is better than being with the wrong one (XH, XF, XBFs, etc.)....so don't settle! Love you girl!
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